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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

 

My "Baby" Will Be 35...


Greetings!

Meet CJ, my only child. This precious photo was taken when he was less than a year old. We were living in Cleveland, Ohio and I was a divorced teenage mom of 17.

This Friday my son will be 35-years-old. This is hard for me to believe, considering that would make me over 50. Even harder for me to believe is how much has changed over the past 35 years...in my life, in my son's life, in the lives of my family, and in the world.

Yet one thing remains the same.

"We love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19 (NIV)

I'm sure this birthday holds particular meaning for me because I was 35-years-old when I left behind a life of sin, shame, desperation, and lonliness and made my U-Turn toward God. Until then, I had been trying to fill the empty places in my life with everything and anything except a relationship with God.

Unfortunately, CJ was a casuality of my aimless search for happiness and meaning during my lost years.

My son was 17-years-old when my eyes were finally opened to the Truth of the Gospel. The very day I asked the Lord to change my heart, CJ was behind bars in a juvenile detention facility...the first in a long and painful history of incarceration.

Why am I sharing this today? It's cold here in Minnesota and a light snow is falling. I'm feeling melancholy and a bit adrift because as my son's birthday draws close, I have no idea where he is. Once again, we are estranged, and the pain comes like a wave and knocks me off my feet. I know I'm not alone in weeping for my child, many of us suffer in silence from choices our adult children make.

I guess I just decided not to suffer in silence today.

So I pray for my son, for other hurting parents, and for the lost children who wander the land seeking...may God give us all strength of heart and soul. May God protect us all as written in Psalm 121:7-8

"The Lord will keep you from all harm--he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore."

God's peace to those who read this today.
Allison
Comments:
Praying for you and your son.
 
Thank you for sharing with all of us. My youngest son and three of his college buddies are home for the next couple of days, and our empty-nest is full once again. Tomorrow their sounds of laughter will be faint echoes and will remind us once again that the hardest part of being a parent is "letting go." We don't do it once, but many times throughout their life--it's the most difficult part of parenting!

Holding you close in prayer,

Connie Pombo
 
Allison,
I am holding you and CJ in my thoughts and prayers--especially today. Peace to you my friend and much love.

Abundant blessings,
Jenny Cary
 
My heart hurts for you and your son, but God is the binder of the broken-hearted. My son accepted Christ anew three weeks ago after so many trials in his life. May the protecting blood of the Risen Lamb divert the wiles of the enemy that would seek to harm C.J.Thanks you for sharing. With hugs and prayers, Ann Coogler
 
"My Baby will be 35" touched a wound deep inside me. My oldest daughter is almost 38 and is an alcoholic- however, God is answering prayers and I thank Him. My middle daughter will be 37 and is incarcerated in Gatesville, Texas for up to 15 years. But God is answering my prayer for her- that He would do whatever it took to make her turn back to Him- she is back to the girl I knew.My third daughter will be 32 this year. She has been missing for almost 16 years. The last time I saw my baby was as she ran down a dirt road in Florida shouting "I hate you!" Oh, my baby- my dear. I love them all so much. For years guilt and sorrow ravaged me until I learned what it means to "turn it all over to Him"!

I am blessed by the most wonderful gift of a 15 year old son- He is a Christian already- what a difference when we put Father first.
Really enjoyed the article. Maybe I'll write one.
 
God bless your son and your relationship with him.

In Jesus,
Maria in the UK (a 7 day old blogger)
www.inhishands.co.uk
 
I MUST KNOW HOW YOU FEEL,AS i LOST MY SON 2YRS AGO AND WILL ALWAYS BE SADDEN,,MAY gOD HELP ALL US MOMS WHO ARE SUFFERING
 
thank God you have your son ,,I don't,,please believe God can make miracles happen
 
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